Posted by Katrina Kaczmarek on December 23, 2010
Today I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. The previous two days of waiting have been absolutely miserable. We couldn’t sleep, and so as we lay in bed each night my husband and I would cry and talk about how scared we were. We have been so miserable over the last two days, that getting the actual diagnosis today, while a totally unpleasant outcome, was a bit of a relief because now we know exactly what we are dealing with and at least a bit about the storm that is going to ensue.
I do not intend for this blog to become a site for complaining and crying about cancer, so I have made a decision.
I am going to look for the love, and the miracles that can be found while fighting cancer. I am going to look for the miracles and beauty that can be found by appreciating each and every day that we are given. I am not going to be defined by cancer. I am going to define the life I have been given. The trials and the crosses that each of us are given to bear, are all just paths that will with faith, hope and love lead to the crown worn in the paradise of life everlasting.
So again I will quote my favorite author, C.S. Lewis, and remember, “If we are happy, then we remember that the crown is not promised without the Cross and tremble”
And so I pray
Lord, help me to bear the cross that you have given me well, and if I am to suffer,
let it be to pull others ever so much closer to you!
Happy Loving and Sitting