Posted by Katrina Kaczmarek on December 31, 2010
“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.”
- C.S. Lewis
This morning on my way to yet another Doctor’s appointment I was listening to one of the local Christian radio stations in my car. One of the announcers said to the man about to do the news, “Is God enough for you John, because God is sure enough for me. God is all I need.” Immediately, the man replied, “Yes Sir! God is definitely enough for me.”
This got me thinking. What does it really look like when God is enough for you? It is so easy to say, “God is enough for me”, but the actual practice is quite another story. It is actually quite a scary proposition to think, “God is enough for me.”
To start exploring this question further, I need to take you a pretty scary bible verse.
Matthew chapter 10 verse 37 “Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.”
This verse used to scare me to death. I used to wrestle with how can this all loving all knowing God tell me to look at my precious little children who I see every day, and love them less than a deity whom my eyes have never gazed upon.
I don’t believe that God meant for us in any way, shape or form to love our loved ones less. In fact he wants and commands the contrary. He wants us to love others with all our hearts, minds and souls. He even wants us to mourn for those we love and lose. In fact, Jesus himself cried at the death of his friend Lazarus, as I believe he cries for our losses. However, here is the difficult catch. If God is enough for you, you will love these others in your life with your whole being, and at the same time you will give unto God your complete trust in regards to the lives they live. In other words, you will not fear. Oh how hard it is to not fear. My husband had valley fever last year and a spot on his lung. I feared. I feared his death. I feared his possible disability. I trembled at the thought of being a widowed single mother. When my daughter was born, I had this crazy terrible fear of SIDS. I would check on her every five minutes all night long. I actually wore the whole family out with my intense fear. It is this intense fear of loss that makes God not enough for us. It is the devil telling us, God is not enough, hang onto something else.
Fear is a curse given to us by the devil, and God is fully aware of how crippling and disabling this curse can be. He doesn’t want us to be crippled by fear therefore he says: “depend on me, lean on me; believe in me, I AM ENOUGH!”
For God to be enough Faith is necessary. Without faith all is utter hopelessness. Without faith each death and each loss is complete despair. With faith, even while facing loss and death there is the glimmer of hope that our Father in Heaven can heal every wound, wipe away every tear, and unite every love. It is when we can truly live loving others with our entire beings while rejecting the fear of loss that God finally becomes ENOUGH!
So my prayer today is:
“ Lord, Let me not be a fool lost in my belief, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE ENOUGH!”
Happy Loving and Sitting!